redemption

How can you think of redemption when you stand at cross roads and make a conscious decision to tread down a path you know will destroy your life. The mind beguiles you into doing things you honestly never thought yourself capable of. Inertia takes over,and for some reason the brain feels disconnected from the body.
we are creatures of habit, we can get used to anything. without even realising it we give into certain actions that change our lives forever. Ego, and self righteousness pulls us into a blame game because we cannot bear to think that maybe our own core is defective. So we pacify our hearts and give our soul hopes of redemption. With dreams of a utopic future, where 'one day everything will be alright', we continue down our forsaken paths, damning ourselves with every breath we take...
there is no redemption...